And I'm Sorry
Sorry, I'm not that guy with a Ph.D.
Sorry, I don't know how to pour wine perfectly.
Sorry, that I couldn't run as fast as you.
Yes, I like anime sometimes.
Yes, I was a little lazy sometimes.
Yes, I look silly dancing all the time.
I'm that quiet guy in English class.
I'm a little short but I'll make you laugh.
I'm pretty smart but I suck at math.
Sorry, that I liked taking candid photos of you.
Sorry, that I made you hot while cuddling.
Sorry, I used both locks upstairs again.
Sorry, that I didn't secure that birthday cake while driving.
Yes, I keep my eyes closed when watching scary movies.
Yes, I do the same when needles are used at the doctor's office.
Yes, I wore clothes that didn't fit me right.
Yes, I loved my cool office closet.
I know I don't have the best memory and I write things down all the time
And you can laugh, but I don't mind.
Things like that don't bother me at all.
And I was not exactly how you wanted me to be.
And I'm sorry.
We said goodbye.
Before I got to apologize.
I didn't change for you.
But some things I did,
For me and for Blu.
And I'm sorry.
Blu and Morikami Gardens
I took Blu to the Morikami Gardens this past weekend. I tend to enjoy saving memories via photography, blogging, or even making little video clips. One day, when Blu is older, she will see these short videos and think of me. I hope to give her a small collection of shared memories with her father. I am usually terrible at photographing children, but for apparent reasons, I absolutely enjoy taking photographs of her. Even though after a while she gives me the, "Ok daddy, I think we took enough pictures ok?"
"Sorry behbah, your daddy likes to take pictures of things he loves and one day you might be doing the same with your behbahs using this camera!"
"Ok ok fiiiiinnneeeee.... one more pic? ^_^"
The moment she realizes that her dad is wearing a chef's hat while cooking."Daddy? Umm, what are you wearing?"
Photo Shoot with Sasha
So, I wanted to shoot something sexy. What? Sexy? An odd want. If you take a look at my portfolio, you'll notice that I don't tend to shoot women with little clothes on, let alone to pose in a sexual nature. My style of shooting is more about expression and emotion of sorts. If emotion is not involved, it's not art now, is it?
The truth is, I did shoot lingerie and "sexy" concepts many many years ago and determined that I was not skilled enough to take photographs of a beautiful woman in that way. I would not do the model justice with how I see her.
While many colleagues and friends and even the models themselves said they LOVED the photos and I made them feel beautiful, I still saw the results as over-sexualized, and I failed to see "art" in work.
I stopped shooting "sexy" shots.
This past week, however, I wanted to shoot something sexy. Sexy, but tasteful, yet simple.
I closed my eyes as I pressed the "Enter" key on my keyboard. I placed a casting call on Facebook. I made it clear what I wanted. What would people think? Would they think I am a pervert? Would they think I just want to see a girl in skimpy clothing? Would they think less of me for taking a sexualized photo of a woman?
"Screw it," I said to myself. "Let them take notes," as I chuckled at the idea. I'm doing a f*****g lingerie/sexy shoot and posting it on Facebook. Simply because I can.
Sasha messaged me and told me she was interested in working with me. Let's do this!
Poor thing drove about an hour to my place to shoot! If I would have known that, I would have done it another day and not during the week!
So Sasha arrives, and I explain to her that I don't have much experience shooting in lingerie or underwear, but that I want it to be tasteful. She tells me that she too is inexperienced in that style of shooting but was interested in trying it, because why not?
We go for the Calvin Klein concept that has been stuck in my head for a few days.
And she nails it :). I don't have a studio at home, so I simply used my living room wall as a backdrop. The gaze Sasha gives here to the camera is just outstanding, and is exactly what I was looking for! I used a simple Beauty Dish with an Alien Bee 800 strobe. 100 ISO, F14, 200 shutter speed. I liked how the background fades into a smooth grey gradient, matching her underwear.
That's it. I was done. I got the shot that I wanted but... we kept shooting more anyways.
So I was liking how the shots were coming out but during the editing process... I felt that something was missing. Something was lacking. Yes, it's sexy, the model is beautiful, but, I wanted more.
What to do what to do... SKIN TEXTURE
I normally don't do heavy editing in PhotoShop but on this day, I experimented with various skin textures and techniques. I remembered many years ago I took photos of a model, Katie Eastman in a similar style. I used the paint in the background to bring contrast to the pictures. This time around, I decided to bring the paint to the model's skin.
Suddenly, I started LOVING the photos even more! I achieved the sexy look I wanted, but I also added a nice artistic twist. The paint on the models forces the viewer to observe the model more, in greater detail, than one would normally do. I loved the concept and was excited to see the possibilities!
"Ricardo! You are so FREAKING AWESOME!" I say to myself! haha
Something about this shot that I love so much. Remove the silver paint, and you have a beauty with sexy lingerie. However, when you add the paint, it changes somehow.
Again, a beautifully lit, great composition, beautiful model, and an artistic twist that keeps the shot refreshing, engaging, and in a way... just... interesting.
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